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Welcome to Shattered Illusions, a blog dedicated to the raw, unfiltered narratives of anti-romance. Here, we delve into the darker side of relationships—the heartbreak, the manipulation, and the emotional devastation often hidden behind the facade of “happily ever after.” This is not a space for fairy tales or sugar-coated love stories; instead, it’s a haven for those seeking emotional release through stories that reflect the struggles of toxic partnerships, self-reclamation, and the courage to break free.

Whether it's the tale of a narcissist’s cruelty, the emotional labor of being with an emotionally immature partner, or the painful process of rediscovering oneself after betrayal, these stories serve as a reminder: not all love is worth saving, and sometimes, the most powerful act of love is choosing yourself.

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Tuesday, December 17, 2024

Letting Go by Olivia Salter

  

In Letting Go, Moving On, Naomi struggles to move on after her fiancé ends their engagement, spiraling into obsession and self-doubt. When her attempts to win him back cross dangerous lines, she’s forced to confront her own identity and emotional wounds. Through heartbreak, therapy, and the rediscovery of her passions, Naomi learns that letting go isn’t just about loss—it’s about finding the strength to reclaim her power and embrace a life of her own.


Letting Go


By Olivia Salter


Word Count: 2,038


Naomi’s refusal to let go of her ex-fiancé Caleb blurs the line between love and obsession. As her attempts to win him back cross into dangerous territory, she begins to unravel, forcing her to face the ghosts she’s clinging to—and the person she’s becoming.

***

The ring sat at the bottom of a drawer Naomi hadn’t opened in months, buried beneath a clutter of receipts and old ticket stubs. Caleb used to call it the “junk graveyard,” though back then, it was more of a playful tease than a critique. Now, the drawer’s name felt like prophecy. Their engagement was dead, but she couldn’t bring herself to bury it completely.

She stared at the drawer, her chest tightening. Somewhere, her phone buzzed—a text, probably from Kendra—but Naomi didn’t move. She didn’t want advice. She didn’t want pity. She wanted him.

Finally, she pulled open the drawer, the familiar box nestled against a frayed envelope. She ran her thumb over its velvet surface before snapping it open. The diamond caught the dim light, cold and unfeeling.

***

Across town, Caleb was laughing in the golden glow of a late afternoon. He stood on the patio of a brewery, a drink in hand, his body angled toward a woman with dark curls who gestured animatedly as she spoke.

The moment froze in Naomi’s mind. She stared at the photo, her stomach twisting. The post had gone up an hour ago.

She closed Instagram and dropped the phone onto the couch as if it had burned her.

***

Kendra let herself in twenty minutes later, takeout in hand and a look that said, I’m about to drag you.

“Naomi, it’s been six months,” she said, dropping the bags on the coffee table. “How are you still in this space? I thought we were burning sage and starting over.”

Naomi crossed her arms. “I’m not in any space.”

“Oh really?” Kendra shot her a pointed look. “You’ve been doomscrolling Caleb’s Instagram all day. Don’t even try to deny it.”

“I just…” Naomi faltered. “I want to understand.”

“There’s nothing to understand,” Kendra said, softer now. “He ended things. It sucks. But you can’t keep punishing yourself like this. It’s not healthy.”

Naomi sank into the couch, the weight of the past six months pressing down on her like lead.

***

That night, Naomi cracked open a bottle of wine and spent hours staring at Caleb’s social media. She analyzed every detail of the photo—his relaxed posture, the way the woman leaned toward him. Did she know how he used to trace patterns on Naomi’s back when they were curled up together? Did she know his laugh was louder when he drank IPAs?

The room felt too quiet, the walls too close. She picked up her phone and opened his email. Her fingers trembled as she typed in his password—a habit she hadn’t broken, even after the breakup.

When the inbox loaded, a rush of guilt hit her. She knew this was wrong, but she couldn’t stop.

And then she saw it:

Subject: Dinner Friday?

Her pulse quickened as she opened the email.

Looking forward to seeing you again. 7:00 at Magnolia’s. Can’t wait.

Her stomach churned.

***

On Friday evening, Naomi found herself outside Magnolia’s, her coat pulled tight against the cold. The glow of the restaurant’s sign cast shadows on the sidewalk, but she stayed back, hidden near the corner of the building.

Her heart raced as she watched the door.

Caleb arrived first, his shoulders relaxed, his phone in hand. He stood near the entrance, glancing around until the woman from the brewery approached. Her laugh carried across the street as she hugged him, her curls bouncing under the streetlights.

They walked inside together, disappearing through the frosted glass doors.

***

Naomi hadn’t planned to go inside. She’d told herself she’d just watch, gather her thoughts, and leave. But before she knew it, she was at the hostess stand, her hands clammy as she asked for a table at the bar.

She didn’t order anything. She just sat there, her eyes locked on their corner table. They were laughing, leaning close, their heads nearly touching.

Her breath came in short bursts as she stood abruptly and walked over. Caleb looked up, his face paling when he saw her.

“Naomi?”

Her voice shook as she said his name, "Caleb," louder than she intended. His companion glanced between them, confused.

“Who is this?” the woman asked, her voice sharp.

“She’s leaving,” Caleb said quickly, standing and blocking Naomi’s path. He grabbed her arm and led her toward the entrance, his grip firm but not rough.

“What are you doing here?” he hissed.

“I needed to talk to you,” Naomi said, her words spilling out in a torrent. “You won’t answer my calls, and I saw the email. I just—”

“You what?” His voice was low but dangerous.

“I had to know, Caleb. You’ve been ignoring me, and now I see you with her? What am I supposed to think?”

“That we’re over!” he snapped, his frustration boiling over. “This is exactly why I left, Naomi. You don’t know when to stop. This? Right here? This is why.”

The words hit like a punch to the gut. She felt the stares of other diners as Caleb released her arm and stepped back.

“Go home, Naomi,” he said, his voice flat.

***

That night, Naomi dreamed of the ocean. The waves were endless, pulling her under no matter how hard she fought. Caleb stood on the shore, his back to her, walking away.

She woke gasping, the dream clinging to her like seaweed. Her phone buzzed on the nightstand—a message from Kendra.

“Naomi, this has to stop. Call me. Please.”

She stared at the screen, her chest tightening.

***

Two days later, Kendra showed up unannounced, dragging Naomi out of bed and shoving her into the car.

“You’re going to therapy,” Kendra said, her voice brooking no argument. “I’ve already made the appointment.”

Naomi slumped in the passenger seat, too tired to protest.

***

The therapist’s office smelled faintly of lavender, the walls painted a soothing gray. Naomi sat stiffly on the couch, her hands twisting in her lap.

After she recounted everything, the therapist leaned forward slightly.

“It sounds like you’re grieving,” she said gently. “But not just Caleb. You’re grieving the version of yourself you thought you were with him.”

Naomi frowned. “What do you mean?”

“Letting go isn’t just about him,” the therapist explained. “It’s about making space for the person you want to become. The one who doesn’t need someone else to define her.”

Naomi left the session feeling raw, as if a dam had cracked inside her. But for the first time, she also felt… lighter.

***

Naomi hadn’t opened Instagram in weeks. She deleted Caleb’s contact, blocked his number, and finally tossed the engagement ring into the river. She stood on the bridge for a long moment after, the cold wind biting at her cheeks, watching the tiny ripple where it had disappeared.

It felt like exhaling after holding her breath for too long.

Kendra was right: this wasn’t about Caleb anymore. It was about her.

***

On a sunny afternoon, Naomi sat at her dining table with a cup of tea and a stack of blank index cards. At her therapist’s suggestion, she was mapping out her goals—small, manageable steps toward rebuilding her sense of self.

The first card read: Revisit painting.

She smiled, remembering how Caleb used to tease her about the splattered drop cloths that seemed permanently glued to their living room floor. She hadn’t picked up a brush in years, but the thought of it stirred something warm in her chest.

The second card was harder to write: Forgive myself.

Her hand shook as she wrote the words. Forgiveness felt distant, like a foreign language she didn’t know how to speak. But she added the card to the pile, determined to try.

***

Three months passed. Naomi started painting again, filling her small apartment with canvases of sunsets and tangled forests. She joined a local art group and made friends who didn’t know her as Caleb’s ex.

One evening, as she was cleaning her brushes, her phone buzzed. She glanced at the screen, her stomach dropping when she saw Caleb’s name.

She hesitated before opening the message.

“Hey. I heard you’ve been doing better. Can we talk?”

Her chest tightened, the old ache threatening to resurface. She sat on the couch, staring at the screen for what felt like hours.

***

Kendra arrived the next day, uninvited as usual, with her arms full of groceries. “You’re cooking dinner with me tonight,” she declared, unloading bags of vegetables onto the counter.

Naomi blinked, startled. “What? Why?”

“Because you’ve been spending too much time in your own head,” Kendra said, waving a carrot like a wand. “And because I have tea.”

Naomi narrowed her eyes. “What kind of tea?”

Kendra grinned. “Caleb texted me. Said he reached out to you.”

Naomi sighed, leaning against the counter. “I don’t know what to do. I haven’t answered.”

“Good.” Kendra set down the carrot, her expression softening. “You don’t owe him anything, Naomi. Not a reply, not closure—nothing. You’re allowed to put yourself first.”

***

A week later, Naomi’s strength cracked. She was sorting through old art supplies when her phone rang. Caleb’s name flashed on the screen.

She stared at it, her heart pounding. Then, against her better judgment, she answered.

“Naomi,” his voice was soft, almost tentative. “Hi.”

“What do you want, Caleb?” She said, surprised at how steady her voice sounded.

“I just… I’ve been thinking about you,” he said. “About us. I feel like we left things unfinished.”

Her fingers tightened around the phone. “We didn’t leave anything unfinished, Caleb. You ended it.”

“I know, and I’m sorry,” he said quickly. “I wasn’t ready back then, but I’ve changed. I miss you.”

Her stomach twisted. For months, she had dreamed of hearing those words. But now, they felt hollow.

“I can’t do this,” she said, her voice breaking. “I can’t go back to that place.”

“You don’t have to,” he said. “I just want a chance to prove—”

“No, Caleb.” Her throat burned, but she forced the words out. “This isn’t about you anymore. It’s about me. And I deserve more than being someone’s second choice.”

The silence on the line was deafening.

“Goodbye, Caleb,” she said softly, hanging up before he could respond.

***

Naomi spent the next few days painting furiously, pouring every emotion she couldn’t put into words onto the canvas. She worked late into the night, her brushes moving with a life of their own.

When she finally stepped back to look at the finished piece, she felt tears prick her eyes. It was a self-portrait—raw and unpolished—but it was her. The version of herself she was learning to love.

She brought the painting to her art group the following week, her hands shaking as she unveiled it. The room fell silent, and for a moment, she worried she had made a mistake.

Then someone said, “That’s powerful.”

The floodgates opened, and soon, her group was buzzing with compliments and questions. Naomi felt a warmth she hadn’t experienced in years—pride, not for someone else’s approval, but for herself.

***

Months turned into a year. On a crisp autumn morning, Naomi walked through the park where she and Caleb used to meet. The leaves crunched under her boots, their fiery colors painting the ground.

She paused by the bench where they had once planned their future, her breath misting in the cool air. For the first time, the memory didn’t sting. It felt distant, like an old photograph tucked away in a box.

Her phone buzzed in her pocket. A message from Kendra.

“Brunch tomorrow? You’re buying.”

Naomi smiled and slipped the phone back into her coat. She had places to go, people to see, and a life that was finally her own.

As she walked away, the wind carried the faint scent of lavender—a ghost of what she had lost and the promise of what lay ahead.

Sunday, December 15, 2024

The Last Autumn Leaves by Olivia Salter

  



The Last Autumn Leaves


By Olivia Salter



Word Count: 2,549


Eva ran her fingers over the cool, silver locket around her neck. She hadn’t taken it off since he gave it to her two years ago, one summer evening under those same maple trees by the lake. That night, his eyes had shimmered with a promise of forever love, and she’d believed him. Now, though, as she waited for him to arrive, she couldn’t decide if it had ever been real or if she’d been clinging to an illusion of him all along.

The air was thick with the scent of damp leaves and woodsmoke drifting from nearby chimneys, a premonition of the first frost. The sun was already dipping low, casting long shadows through the park as the wind played its mournful tune through branches stripped nearly bare. This was where they’d spent countless late afternoons together, where they’d fallen into the habits and patterns that had become a slow poison. She’d loved him here—too much, she realized now.

Isaac arrived late, as always, striding with the kind of ease that made Eva’s heart clench. His hands were shoved deep into his coat pockets, and his face was as familiar to her as her own, yet she felt a strange sense of distance, like he was already slipping from her, a figure in a fading photograph.

“Hey,” he said, stopping just short of where she stood. He smiled, a small, hesitant curve of his lips, and though part of her wanted to lean into the warmth of it, she knew better now.

“Hey,” she replied, her voice barely a whisper. She could feel the weight of every conversation they’d ever had resting between them, a mountain of words that had never quite bridged the space where real understanding should have been.

They stood there in silence for a moment, Eva watching as the last stubborn leaves held tight to the branches above, each one clinging to life even as the season told them to let go. She wondered if she was one of those leaves, too—still grasping for something that had already drifted away, even if she hadn’t wanted to admit it.

Isaac broke the silence. “You…you wanted to talk?” His voice sounded unsure, almost as if he couldn’t quite believe she’d asked him to meet here.

“Yes, I did,” she said, straightening, gathering her strength. She’d rehearsed this in her mind a thousand times, but standing here in front of him, every word felt as if it might shatter before it left her lips. She took a steadying breath. “Isaac, I’ve been thinking…about us, and I don’t think we’re on the same path.”

He looked at her, a flicker of confusion passing over his face. “What do you mean?”

She tightened her grip on the locket, the metal biting into her palm. She didn’t want to spell it out for him, but maybe he needed to hear it, clearly and plainly, no more soft edges. “You know what I mean, Isaac. I’ve been waiting for you to show me that this—” she gestured to the space between them, “—means as much to you as it does to me. But I can’t keep giving pieces of myself, hoping that one day you’ll do the same. I’m tired.”

A flash of something dark crossed his face. “Tired? What are you talking about? I’m here, aren’t I? I came because you asked me to. I thought we had something good.”

She forced a bitter laugh, the sound sharper than she’d intended. “Good? Good isn’t enough, Isaac. Good is you calling me when it’s convenient for you, making me feel like I’m the only one who’s giving anything. I’ve been bending and breaking, trying to meet you halfway, but every time I get close, you pull back. Don’t you see that?”

Isaac stared at her, as if seeing her for the first time, and for a moment, she thought she saw the spark of realization in his eyes. But then his expression closed off, his jaw tightening. “Eva, you’re being dramatic. It’s not that serious.”

Her heart sank. She’d heard that line from him before, the one he used to brush aside her feelings as if they were leaves in the wind, unimportant, fleeting. She’d let him do it so many times, convincing herself that he didn’t mean it, that he cared more than he knew how to express. But standing here, she knew it wasn’t enough. Love wasn’t just showing up when it was easy, and it wasn’t dismissing someone’s pain with a careless word.

“It is serious,” she said, her voice steady. “Maybe that’s the problem—you think it’s all just…light and easy. But love isn’t just about the happy moments. It’s about showing up, even when things are hard. I’ve shown up for you more times than I can count, and I’m realizing that you’ve never really shown up for me.”

He shifted, glancing away, his hands clenching in his pockets. She could see his discomfort, the way he wanted to dismiss her again, brush her off, make her doubt her own feelings. It had always been this way: his needs, his excuses, his half-hearted efforts. And she’d let it happen because she’d wanted so desperately to believe he could be the person she saw in those rare moments when he let his guard down.

“Eva, I never asked you to give so much,” he said quietly. “You chose to do that. I didn’t ask for all this…intensity.”

The words stung, sharp and cutting, like the wind biting into her cheeks. But beneath the hurt, she felt a strange sense of clarity. He was right—he hadn’t asked. She’d given and given, hoping he’d see her, hoping he’d love her in the way she needed. But it had always been a one-sided dance, her chasing after a mirage of the man she wished he could be.

She felt tears prick her eyes, but she blinked them back. She would not cry, not here, not in front of him. “I know, Isaac,” she said softly. “I know you didn’t ask. And maybe that’s the saddest part.”

He looked at her then, a flicker of something—regret, maybe, or even a hint of sadness—crossing his face. But it was too little, too late. She’d spent too many nights lying awake, wondering if she was too much or not enough, trying to twist herself into shapes that would please him. She couldn’t do it anymore.

“Isaac,” she continued, her voice a whisper, “I’ve loved you with everything I had, but I can’t keep doing this. I’m losing myself in the process, and I deserve more than that.”

He reached for her hand, his fingers brushing hers, warm and familiar, a touch she’d once craved. But now, it felt like an anchor, holding her in a place where she no longer belonged. She pulled her hand away, the final severing of a bond that had been fraying for a long time.

“Eva, please…” he murmured, and for a moment, she thought she heard a hint of real sorrow in his voice. But she knew it wasn’t enough. Regret wasn’t the same as love, and sorrow wasn’t the same as commitment.

She took a step back, feeling the weight lift, little by little. The pain was still there, a deep ache in her chest, but beneath it, she felt a strange sense of freedom, a glimmer of the self she’d lost along the way.

“Goodbye, Isaac,” she whispered, the words both a release and a promise to herself. She turned and walked away, her footsteps echoing through the quiet park, each step carrying her further from him and closer to herself.

As she reached the edge of the park, she paused, glancing back one last time. Isaac was still standing there, his figure silhouetted against the fading light, but he no longer held the same power over her heart. He was a chapter closing, a memory she would carry but never again let define her.

She walked away, leaving the last autumn leaves to fall behind her, feeling the dawn of something new blossoming within her—a quiet, resolute love for herself, strong enough to carry her forward into whatever lay ahead.

Eva kept walking, her feet carrying her beyond the boundaries of the park and into the city streets, where lights were beginning to glow against the deepening blue of twilight. With each step, she could feel herself growing stronger, a weight lifting that she hadn’t realized she’d been carrying for so long. She took a deep breath, feeling the crisp autumn air fill her lungs, cold but bracing, as though the universe was reminding her of what it meant to be alive and awake to her own needs.

As she passed a coffee shop, she caught her reflection in the window. The woman looking back at her seemed somehow older, yet more assured, with a glint in her eye she hadn’t seen in years. She barely recognized herself. She had been so lost in trying to mold herself into the shape that would fit Isaac’s needs, she’d forgotten what it felt like to be her own person. To want things for herself.

For years, she had bent herself in half, a shadow of her full self, just to keep the peace in their relationship. But with him gone, she no longer needed to. She could stretch out, unfurl her heart, and ask herself what she wanted—really, truly wanted—without fearing the answer would drive him away.

As she stood there in the fading light, she felt the urge to write. Eva had always loved writing, loved getting lost in the worlds she created with her words. It was a part of herself that Isaac had once admired, but that admiration had grown quiet over the years. He hadn’t actively discouraged her from writing, but his indifference had settled over her creativity like a cold fog. When she’d told him about her latest story idea, he’d nodded absently, barely listening. Over time, she’d begun to question if her ideas had any worth.

But now, with nothing and no one holding her back, she felt a surge of excitement. The realization hit her like a spark in a dark room—she could write for herself, as much and as deeply as she wanted. She could make it her world, one where she was enough.

Driven by a rush of inspiration, she pulled out her notebook and began scribbling thoughts, words pouring from her pen as if a dam had finally broken. As she wrote, a feeling of warmth and purpose bloomed within her, filling up the hollow spaces left by Isaac’s absence. This was a part of herself that had lain dormant, waiting for her to find the courage to reclaim it.

By the time she finished writing, an hour had passed, and the city was alive with the evening hum of people returning home, lights flickering on in apartment windows. She tucked the notebook back into her bag, feeling lighter than she had in years. She wasn’t sure where this path would lead her—she only knew it was one she was ready to walk alone.

Over the following weeks, Eva began rediscovering parts of herself she’d let go during her relationship with Isaac. She spent long evenings in coffee shops, filling pages with stories, her imagination ignited with new energy. She returned to her love for art, spending Saturdays exploring galleries and taking photos of anything that caught her eye, finding beauty in places she’d once overlooked. Each day felt like a journey back to herself, piece by piece, memory by memory.

She found solace in her solitude, in the quiet spaces where she could hear her own voice, no longer drowned out by the noise of someone else’s expectations. She began setting boundaries with friends and family, learning to say “no” when she needed time for herself. She realized that taking up space in her own life wasn’t selfish—it was essential.

There were moments of pain, of course. Sometimes she would reach for her phone, her thumb hovering over Isaac’s number, a familiar ache tugging at her. But each time, she reminded herself of the truth: love couldn’t flourish where there was no respect, no reciprocity. And each time, the ache grew a little softer, a little easier to bear.

One night, as she was settling into bed, her phone lit up with a message from an unknown number. The words were simple, and she recognized Isaac’s voice in them immediately: “Thinking of you.”

Her heart gave a painful lurch, but she knew better than to respond. She had already walked away, already mourned the parts of herself she’d lost in that relationship. She didn’t need to revisit the past, to be drawn back into a cycle that would only leave her hurting again.

Instead, she put the phone down, closed her eyes, and reminded herself of the woman she was becoming—the woman she was proud of. This time, she chose herself.

Months passed, and autumn turned to winter, then to spring. Eva’s life had blossomed in ways she never could have imagined. She completed her first novel, a story that mirrored her own journey, one of finding strength in the face of heartbreak. She submitted it to a small press, and to her surprise, it was accepted for publication. The book, Falling Leaves, was dedicated “To all those who had to let go in order to grow.”

Her friends and family noticed the change in her, too. There was a spark in her eyes, a confidence that came not from someone else’s validation, but from within. She was no longer afraid of being too much or not enough; she was simply herself, whole and unafraid.

On a warm, breezy afternoon, Eva visited the park by the lake where she had last seen Isaac. The trees were vibrant with new leaves, the air filled with the scent of fresh blossoms. She found the bench where they’d parted ways and sat down, taking in the view.

There was no sadness this time, no lingering sense of loss. Instead, she felt gratitude for the journey that had brought her here, to this moment of peace and acceptance. The park had witnessed her heartbreak, her pain, and now it bore witness to her healing.

She thought of Isaac, wondering if he had found his own way, if he had discovered his own path to happiness. She hoped he had, but she knew it wasn’t her burden to carry anymore. They had been two people on different journeys, their paths crossing for a time, only to diverge when they could no longer grow together.

Eva closed her eyes, letting the breeze caress her face, feeling the warmth of the sun on her skin. She was whole, complete, and content with her own company. She had learned that love was not a sacrifice, but an act of self-respect, one that started from within.

As she rose to leave, she glanced back at the trees, the branches reaching toward the sky, full of new life. She smiled, a quiet, knowing smile, and walked forward, ready to embrace the world ahead, where her story was just beginning.

Saturday, December 14, 2024

Betrayed by Love: The Web of Lies Between Us by Olivia Salter

 


Betrayed by Love: The Web of Lies Between Us


By Olivia Salter



Word Count: 5,352


The rain was relentless that night, pounding against the kitchen window as Maya scrubbed the dinner plates, alone. She felt the stillness, the absence of laughter that used to fill this room—their room, the home they’d built. A message buzzed on her phone, lighting up the counter with two familiar words: Working late. Again.

She stared at the message, her grip tightening around the dish towel. Lately, “working late” had become Andre’s go-to excuse, but it had once meant something different. In the early days of their marriage, he’d come home after those long nights exhausted but full of stories. He’d laugh as he told her about the chaotic clients, or she’d see his eyes light up when he’d finally signed a big deal. He was ambitious, and she admired that. Together, they’d navigated setbacks, the bruising failures of his first business, and she’d stood by him, reassuring him they could make it through anything. But now, instead of the warmth she once felt, all that remained was a shadowy emptiness.

It started as little things, barely noticeable at first. Andre would leave his phone face-down on the counter or slide it into his pocket whenever she entered the room. He had taken to answering her questions with quick, clipped responses that told her everything and nothing at once. She’d find herself repeating, He’s just busy, or, He’ll open up when he’s ready, but there was an undercurrent—a slow-building tension, like a crack running through glass, expanding in silence.

The memory of his laugh felt more like a distant echo, and she found herself searching his face when he spoke, looking for traces of the man she’d married. But he was slipping away from her, fading into the polished, professional mask he wore for the world, his smile rehearsed, his warmth hollow.

One night, unable to sleep, she lay in the dark beside him, staring at the ceiling, the stillness pressing down on her like an invisible force. Something was wrong; she knew it. But every time she opened her mouth to ask him, her voice felt too small, her questions foolish and unfounded.

Yet the nagging doubt didn’t fade. One evening, as she sat alone in their kitchen, she pulled up their joint credit card account. She wasn’t snooping—she managed their finances; it was her habit to check expenses, to budget. But when she saw the charge—a hotel booking from two weeks ago—her heart stilled. It wasn’t the amount that shocked her, or even the location. It was the date. That particular night, he had come home late, kissing her on the forehead with the quick murmur of, “Just another long day.”

The walls around her seemed to close in as she stared at the screen, her heart pounding in her chest. She wanted to believe it was a mistake, that there was a logical explanation, but her mind kept spiraling, filling with questions she was too afraid to ask.

She spent that night tangled in the sheets, twisting restlessly beside him as he slept, undisturbed. By morning, the uncertainty had morphed into a simmering anger, fueled by every evasive response, every dismissive wave of his hand. She was done with silence.

Over breakfast, she finally confronted him, her voice shaking with an anger she hadn’t expected. “I saw a charge for a hotel room on our credit card,” she said, staring directly into his eyes. “Want to explain that?”

He looked up, his spoon frozen mid-air, and for a split second, she saw something flicker across his face—guilt, perhaps, or maybe just surprise. He quickly composed himself, forcing a casual smile that felt wrong, like he was slipping on a mask.

“Oh, that?” he said, waving a hand dismissively. “It was a business meeting. Sometimes clients don’t want to discuss things in public spaces.”

Her eyes narrowed as she studied him, her mind dissecting every word, every twitch of his expression. There was a time when his easy charm had been comforting, but now it felt like a barrier, a way to keep her at arm’s length. “A business meeting,” she repeated, her voice hollow.

He avoided her gaze, spooning up another scoop of grits as though nothing had happened. “Yes, Maya. It’s just business.”

But her stomach churned, and she felt something shift inside her—a breaking point, a slow shattering of the trust they had spent years building. She wanted to believe him, wanted to brush it off and move forward, but her instincts screamed otherwise.

***

The following days passed in a haze. She’d walk through their home and catch sight of their wedding photos, the smiling faces frozen in time, each image a reminder of the life they had once dreamed of. She would lie awake, listening to his soft breathing beside her, feeling like there was an invisible wall between them, a distance she couldn’t bridge.

Then, weeks later, she stumbled across a pile of unopened letters. They were mostly bills and bank statements—things she usually sorted through without a second thought. But when she saw her name listed as the primary borrower on a loan document, she felt her world tilt. She hadn’t taken out any loans. Her heart sank as she read through the statement, the total amount glaring back at her like a condemnation.

He had used her name. He had taken out a loan without her knowledge, hiding it under her identity like a parasite leeching off her trust. The betrayal felt like a knife twisting inside her, sharp and cold, as if everything she thought she knew was unraveling, leaving her grasping at broken threads.

When he came home that night, she didn’t hold back. Her anger spilled over, her voice rising as she confronted him, every accusation tumbling out in a bitter torrent. “How could you do this to me? How could you take out a loan in my name and lie about it?”

Andre stood there, his face a mixture of frustration and desperation. “I thought—I just needed a little help,” he said, his voice cracking. “The business— it’s not easy, Maya. I didn’t want you to think I’d failed again.”

His words felt hollow, a string of excuses that only deepened her anger. She watched him, seeing him fully for the first time—not the man she had loved, but someone who had used her trust as a shield, hiding behind it to protect himself from the consequences of his actions.

“Do you even realize what you’ve done?” she whispered, her voice trembling. “You’ve destroyed us, Andre.”

She turned away, unable to bear the sight of him, feeling as though she were watching her life fall apart piece by piece, each memory tainted by his betrayal. The man she had once thought she’d grow old with was gone, replaced by a stranger.

The tension hung thick in the room as Maya sat across from Andre, her arms crossed tightly over her chest, a storm brewing behind her eyes. She had spent the last few hours unraveling what felt like a twisted web of deception, her mind reeling with the reality of it all: the money, the lies, the betrayals she hadn’t even begun to fully comprehend. It had taken a single phone call with their bank to confirm what she had long feared—Andre had taken out a massive loan of a million dollars in both of their names, without her knowledge or consent.

Andre shifted nervously on the couch, his eyes darting to the floor. He had known the confrontation was inevitable, but he hadn’t expected Maya to uncover it so soon. He tried to reach for her hand, but she drew back, her expression hard like a pit bull.

“Maya, please,” he began, his voice pleading, “I know this looks bad, but I was going to tell you. I just… I thought I could handle it on my own, that I could fix things before you even knew. I didn’t want to worry you.”

“Handle it?” Maya’s voice was low, barely containing her anger. “Andre, you took out a loan in my name. Behind my back. Without even considering the consequences it would have on both of us. Do you understand how serious that is?”

Andre’s face flushed, his gaze darting to the side. “I know it was wrong, but I was desperate. Things at work haven’t been going well, and the bills… they were piling up. I thought if I could just get some cash flow, we’d be okay.”

Maya shook her head, bitterness rising in her chest. “And that’s supposed to make it okay? That’s supposed to make me feel better?” She paused, her voice trembling. “You lied to me, Andre. You made a decision that affects both of us without even consulting me. How am I supposed to trust you after this?”

Andre’s hands clenched into fists. He tried to mask his frustration, but it slipped through the cracks. “I did it for us, Maya. I didn’t want to drag you down with my problems. I thought… I thought I could fix it myself.”

“For us?” Maya repeated, her voice distrusting. “You didn’t do this for us, Andre. You did this for yourself, to avoid facing the reality of our situation, to avoid having an honest conversation with me. I would have helped you if you’d just told me the truth. But instead, you decided to keep me in the dark, to let me believe everything was fine when it wasn’t.”

Andre looked away, guilt etched into his features. “I know I messed up. I know I don’t deserve your forgiveness. But please, Maya… please, don’t end things like this. We can get through this. I’ll fix it, I swear.”

Maya stood up, the weight of his betrayal settling heavily in her heart. She looked down at him, her voice steady but filled with pain. “I thought we were partners, Andre. I thought we were building a life together, sharing everything—the good and the bad. But you’ve shown me that I can’t trust you. You kept secrets, you lied, and you put me in a position I didn’t ask to be in. That’s not love. That’s not respect.”

Andre’s face twisted in desperation. He stood, reaching for her, his voice breaking. “Maya, please, don’t do this. Don’t throw everything away over one mistake. I’ll make it right. I’ll be better, I swear.”

She took a step back, putting distance between them. “It’s not just one mistake, Andre. It’s the trust you broke, the lies you told. How am I supposed to move forward with someone I can’t even trust? Every time I look at you, I’ll remember that you didn’t respect me enough to be honest.”

“Maya, I love you,” he whispered, his voice choked with emotion. “I love you, and I can’t lose you.”

She looked at him, tears pooling in her eyes, but her decision was unshaken. “Love isn’t enough, Andre. Not without honesty, not without trust. And you took both of those things from me.”

With one last glance, she turned, grabbing her coat from the chair, and walked toward the door. He called out to her one last time, but she didn’t stop, didn’t look back. As she stepped out into the cool night air, she felt a strange mixture of grief and relief. Her heart was breaking, but at least now, it was breaking for something true.

***

In the months that followed, the apartment felt like a ghostly shell of itself. The rooms were filled with silence, the spaces where Andre’s belongings had been now empty. She felt hollow, as if her heart had been scooped out, leaving only an aching void. Nights were the worst; she would lie awake, staring at the ceiling, replaying every conversation, every touch, every moment she had missed. She questioned her own instincts, wondering how she could have been so blind.

It was a cold, gray Saturday morning when Maya’s phone buzzed unexpectedly. She was in the middle of her usual weekend routine, tidying her apartment while humming along to the smooth rhythm of "Choosey Lover" by the Isley Brothers drifting from the radio. The scent of her freshly brewed coffee lingered in the air as she took a slow sip, savoring the moment of quiet comfort. Then her phone screen lit up with an unknown number, cutting through her small oasis of peace.

Maya hesitated, eyeing the phone with a mix of annoyance and mild curiosity. Unknown numbers rarely brought anything good, yet something inside her—a feeling she couldn’t quite shake—urged her to pick up. She took a breath, steadying herself as she answered.

“Hello?”

The voice on the other end was soft, almost hesitant. “Hi, is this Maya?”

The simple question prickled at her nerves. “Yes, this is she,” Maya replied, keeping her tone polite but guarded.

There was a pause, a breath too long, before the voice continued. “My name is Lena. I’m calling… I’m calling because of Andre. He’s my fiancé.”

The name hit Maya like a punch to the gut. Andre. Her Andre. The man she had spent years loving, only to have her trust shattered by his lies. She had clawed her way out of the despair he left her in, rebuilt herself bit by bit, and put his name away in a locked drawer in her mind. She hadn’t heard it in months, hadn’t wanted to, and now, here it was, resurrected by a stranger’s voice.

“What do you want?” The words came out sharper than she intended, each syllable laced with the remnants of the bitterness she thought she’d buried.

The woman on the other end took a shaky breath, her voice unsteady. “I know this is awkward, and I really didn’t want to intrude on your life. But I felt you deserved to know.” Lena’s voice wavered, as if she was struggling to push each word out. “I’m… I’m pregnant,  due any day. And Andre is the father.”

For a moment, Maya couldn’t breathe. The words didn’t make sense; they felt like jagged pieces of some cruel puzzle she was supposed to put together. The sounds of the apartment faded away, leaving a dull, ringing silence. Her grip on the phone tightened until her knuckles were white, grounding her in the face of this fresh wave of betrayal.

“What…?” Her voice came out as a hollow whisper, her throat dry as sand.

Lena’s words tumbled out in a rush, as though she feared Maya might hang up. “I didn’t know he was married,” she continued, sounding both pained and apologetic. “He never told me until recently… until I found out about you. I confronted him, and that’s when he confessed everything—the loan he took out in both your names, that he used for the down payment he made on our new place. I felt like my whole world crumbled. And then… I found out I was pregnant.”

Maya’s knees grew weak, and she sank down onto the edge of her bed, clutching the phone as if it were the only thing tethering her to reality. The words washed over her, cold and brutal, ripping open wounds she thought had finally started to heal. She had suspected the lies, felt the strain, but another life? Another woman, another home, another future? It was more than she could bear.

“So… he kept all of this from me,” Maya murmured, the bitterness lacing her voice now raw and sharp. “Not just the loan, not just the lies. But… an entire other life.”

“Yes,” Lena replied, her voice breaking slightly. “I’m so sorry. I know this must be devastating to hear. And I don’t expect you to have any sympathy for me—I feel betrayed too. I thought he was honest with me, that he was… my future. But I couldn’t go through this without telling you. You deserved the truth.”

Maya’s mind was spinning, her memories rushing back in stark, painful clarity. The late-night calls he’d dismiss as “work emergencies,” the odd disappearances, the vague answers she’d brushed aside because she’d trusted him, believed him. Every piece fell into place now, a jigsaw of betrayal that formed a picture too painful to look at.

“Thank you for telling me,” she managed, her voice brittle. “I… I don’t know what to say.”

Lena’s voice softened, carrying a note of understanding, almost a sad sisterhood in their shared suffering. “I understand. I know this doesn’t change anything, and I’m not expecting you to forgive him—or me. But I thought maybe… maybe it would give you closure.”

After a few more strained exchanges, the call ended, leaving Maya in a silence that felt like it might crush her. She sat there for what felt like hours, staring blankly at the walls as her apartment filled with the hollow weight of Andre’s betrayal. It seeped into the room like a dark fog, wrapping around her heart, her bones, pulling her back into the pit of anguish she thought she’d escaped.

She rose slowly, almost as if in a trance, wandering to the living room where the remnants of her morning lay—the coffee cup still half full, the scent of it mingling with the faint echo of the Isley Brothers’ melody, now silent. She looked around at the life she had built, the life she had invited Andre into, only to be deceived so thoroughly. Her home, once a sanctuary, now felt tainted, a reminder of how easily love could turn to ashes.

The realization of the depth of his dishonesty felt like an anchor, pulling her down into an ocean of hurt she had barely escaped. She wanted to scream, to cry, to rage against the unfairness of it all. But all she could do was sit there, hollow and numb, as the life she had once shared with him unraveled completely.

Hours later, as dusk began to settle over the city, Maya finally found the strength to get up. She walked to the window and looked out, her heart aching, her mind a whirlwind of thoughts. This betrayal was a wound that would take a long time to heal, one that went beyond lies and secrets—it was a wound that cut to the very core of who she was and the trust she had given so freely.

***

Two days later, Maya was still processing Lena’s call, her emotions like raw, exposed nerves. She was replaying every moment, every detail, when her phone buzzed again. This time, it was Andre’s name on the screen. Her stomach twisted, but she felt a strange calm settle over her. She knew she needed answers.

She answered, voice steady. “What do you want, Andre?”

“Maya, please,” he started, a pleading edge in his voice. “Can we talk? I know I messed up—I know I lied, and I hurt you. But I just need a chance to explain.”

Against her better judgment, she agreed to meet him at a small café near her apartment. She kept her guard up as she arrived, her heart hardened against the familiar face waiting for her. He looked thinner, a bit ragged, as though he hadn’t slept well. She felt a pang of sympathy before remembering all he had done.

“Maya,” he said as soon as she sat down, reaching for her hand. She pulled back, crossing her arms, waiting for him to explain himself.

He cleared his throat, visibly uncomfortable under her gaze. “Look, I know… I know I’ve been awful. I know I lied, and I hurt you more than I can even understand. But it wasn’t… it wasn’t what you think.”

Maya arched an eyebrow, unimpressed. “Really? So you didn’t lie to me about the money? Or about where you were all those times?”

Andre swallowed, then shook his head. “No. I did lie about those things, and I know it was wrong. I just—I didn’t want to tell you because… because I was embarrassed. I got in over my head, Maya. The debt, the pressure… I was drowning, and I thought I could handle it on my own. I didn’t want you to see me like that.”

She felt her jaw tighten as he spoke, frustration building. “So that was it? You were just in debt?”

He nodded, eyes downcast. “Yes, that’s it. I swear, Maya, there wasn’t… there wasn’t another woman.”

Maya’s heart clenched at the blatant lie. She wanted to throw Lena’s words back in his face, to reveal that she knew everything. But something held her back, an instinct to let him reveal himself, to see how far he’d go with the charade.

“You expect me to believe that?” she asked, voice low, barely masking her anger.

“Yes,” he insisted, his eyes finally meeting hers, a flicker of desperation in them. “There was no one else. I swear to you. It was just the money. That’s all. I know I should’ve come clean sooner, but I didn’t want to lose you, Maya. You mean everything to me.”

Maya felt a hollow ache rise up in her chest as he reached across the table, his fingers brushing hers. She pulled her hand away, crossing her arms again. “Andre, do you think I’m stupid?”

He looked at her, startled. “What do you mean?”

“You think I don’t know about Lena?”

The color drained from his face. For a moment, his mouth opened, but no words came out. He swallowed hard, and she saw the mask crack, a flicker of fear crossing his face.

“Lena… she called me,” Maya said quietly, watching his expression closely. “She told me about the baby. She told me everything.”

Andre’s shoulders slumped, his entire demeanor deflated. “Maya, I… I didn’t want you to know,” he admitted, his voice barely above a whisper. “I thought I could fix things before you found out. I didn’t want to hurt you any more than I already had.”

“But you did hurt me, Andre. Over and over again. Do you even realize what you’ve done?”

Tears filled his eyes, and he reached for her hand again, desperation in his touch. “Please, Maya. I know I messed up. I know I don’t deserve your forgiveness, but I can change. I swear, I’ll do anything to make this right. No more secrets. No more lies. I want to make this work. I still love you.”

She looked down at his hand, her fingers resting in his, but she felt no warmth, no spark, no hope. Only a dull, aching sorrow for the life she had once thought they would build together, for the man she had once loved and trusted. That man was gone, replaced by someone she no longer recognized.

“Love?” she repeated, pulling her hand away. “You think you still love me after all of this? Love isn’t secrets, Andre. Love isn’t betrayal. And love definitely isn’t bringing a child into the world with someone else behind my back.”

He reached for her again, but she stood, pushing her chair back with a firm finality. “Don’t,” she said, holding up her hand. “Don’t say anything else. I don’t believe a word that comes out of your mouth anymore.”

The pain and confusion in his face seemed genuine, but she knew it was too late. She couldn’t afford to believe him, not after all he had taken from her. She had nothing left to give him.

“Goodbye, Andre,” she said, her voice steady, even as her heart felt like it was splintering all over again. She turned, leaving him sitting at the table, his hand outstretched, empty.

Walking out of the café, she felt a strange sense of freedom mingling with the sorrow. The weight of Andre’s lies and betrayal no longer held her captive. She was finally ready to let go, to move forward without looking back. And for the first time in a long time, she felt the faintest glimmer of peace.

But even as the pain settled in, there was a flicker of hope. Andre had taken so much from her, but he could not take her peace, her strength, or her ability to move forward. He had betrayed her in unimaginable ways, but she would not let him define her future.

Maya took a deep breath, grounding herself in the present, feeling her own strength. She would carry this pain, but she would also let it sharpen her, fortify her. She was no longer the woman who would believe in hollow promises and empty reassurances. She was rebuilding herself, one scar at a time, into someone stronger than she had ever been.

As the first stars began to blink into the darkening sky, Maya turned away from the window, ready to face whatever came next.

***

Finally, unable to bear the silence anymore, she called a therapist. The first few sessions were grueling, each one like peeling back a layer of pain she had hidden from herself. She learned about dishonesty, how it could seep into a relationship, eroding trust until nothing remained. The betrayal had left her raw, vulnerable, and yet, there was a spark—a faint flicker of joy that refused to die.

Through therapy, she began to rebuild herself, piece by piece. She started identifying the warning signs she’d missed, the subtle lies, the dismissive comments that had eaten away at her sense of self-worth. She confronted the pain, the anger, and the guilt, slowly reclaiming the strength she had buried under layers of doubt and betrayal.

One evening, she decided to clear out the remnants of her past with Andre. She packed away his photos, removed the wedding ring she had once cherished, and opened the windows, letting in the cool night air. It was a ritual, a way to cleanse the space, to mark a new beginning. As she went through their things, she found herself drawn to her own belongings, her own memories—the books she loved, the art she had collected. Each item was a reminder of who she was before him, a woman who had once been whole.

***

Over the next few months, she created new routines for herself. She joined a local support group, where she found comfort in sharing her story with others who had suffered betrayal. There was solace in their shared pain, a reminder that she wasn’t alone. She rediscovered hobbies, lost herself in books, and began to rebuild friendships she had neglected.

One morning, as she walked through the city, she felt a lightness that surprised her. The city lights, the bustling streets, even the honking of cars—they all felt alive, vibrant, as if the world was inviting her to rejoin it. She smiled, a small but genuine smile, feeling, for the first time in months, a real sense of peace.

Maya stood by her apartment window that night, watching the skyline twinkle against the dark. She no longer felt haunted by the shadows of her past. Instead, there was pride, a quiet peace that had been forged through pain and healing. She had survived the wreckage, emerged stronger, wiser, and more sure of herself than ever.

As she leaned against the window, she knew she was ready to begin again—not out of need, but out of choice. She had woven a new story for herself, one grounded in honesty and self-respect. The wounds Andre had left were still there, but they were healing, fading into scars that no longer defined her.

Maya continued to fill her life with the things she loved. She found a quiet joy in decorating her apartment anew, slowly transforming each room into a reflection of her own taste and dreams. The kitchen, once a place filled with tense conversations and hurried glances, now became a cozy sanctuary. She painted the walls a warm shade of yellow and bought a set of matching mugs, one for every morning she would savor coffee by the window, a quiet ritual of gratitude for the freedom and peace she was reclaiming.

Eventually, Maya began meeting new people. She joined a book club and reconnected with old friends who had noticed her withdrawal during the turbulent years with Andre. Each connection she made reminded her of the value of trust and vulnerability, not as things to be guarded against but as gifts she could choose to give when the right people came along.

One Saturday, while browsing at a local bookstore, she bumped into a man who spilled coffee on her scarf. Startled, they both laughed as he apologized profusely. His name was James, and after a few minutes of easy conversation, he offered to buy her a replacement scarf from the little artisan stall outside. She accepted, a bit hesitantly, her guard up but her heart curious. James had a warmth to him, a calmness she found both comforting and disarming. They talked about books, family, and dreams over tea, and when he asked her out again, she found herself saying yes, surprised at how natural it felt to open herself to someone new.

In the weeks that followed, Maya and James took things slowly, each learning the other’s edges and boundaries with care and respect. Unlike with Andre, there were no hidden phone calls or vague excuses. James was open about his past, his career, his dreams. He listened as Maya shared her own story, the caution she now carried, and the heartbreak she had endured. When she told him about the betrayal, she expected him to change the subject or to offer the empty reassurances she had grown used to. Instead, he simply listened, his gaze steady and full of empathy.

“I’m sorry you had to go through that,” he said, his voice soft. “No one deserves to be hurt like that. But I’m here, Maya. I’m not going anywhere.”

His words settled over her like a balm, soothing and reassuring. She had learned to be skeptical, to question her own instincts, but with James, something inside her relaxed. He wasn’t rushing her or asking for anything more than what she was ready to give. Their relationship was marked by small acts of trust, each one a tentative step forward, a way for her to rediscover what it meant to let someone in.

Months turned into a year, and slowly, Maya’s heart began to soften. She no longer held onto the bitterness or the fear that had once defined her. She was learning to love again, but this time with an awareness she hadn’t had before, a strength forged from the lessons of her past. She had boundaries now—clear and firm—and she communicated openly with James, letting him know when she felt insecure or unsure. They navigated those moments together, building something honest and unbreakable.

One evening, as they walked hand-in-hand through a quiet park, James stopped, turning to face her. “Maya,” he said, his voice a little shaky, “I know we’ve both been through a lot, and I don’t want to rush anything. But…I can’t imagine my life without you. I want us to keep building something real, together.”

Maya’s breath caught, her heart swelling as she looked into his eyes. She remembered the pain of betrayal, the fear of being hurt again, but those feelings no longer controlled her. She had rebuilt her life, found peace, and learned to trust herself. Standing there with James, she realized that while her journey had been marked by loss, it had also led her here—to a place of healing, hope, and love that felt more profound than anything she’d ever known.

“I want that, too,” she whispered, her voice steady. “Let’s keep building, together.”

As they continued down the path, Maya looked up at the sky, a deep indigo scattered with stars, each one a reminder of the beauty that existed beyond darkness. She was no longer defined by her past but by the strength she had found within herself. Her heart, once broken, was now whole, and she knew that whatever the future held, she was ready.

Friday, December 13, 2024

Reclaiming My Time: Picture of a New Life by Olivia Salter

  



Reclaiming My Time: Picture of a New Life


By Olivia Salter



Word Count: 2,827


Rebecca’s days had long ago blurred into a colorless loop: mornings with coffee brewed and breakfast ready, his lunch packed, his socks matched and folded. The ritualistic preparation for Eric’s day was a production with no audience, no applause, only the fading hope that perhaps today he’d look at her with more than that dismissive glance. In those early years, she had romanticized his dismissiveness as mystery, mistaking his quiet moods for depth and his selfishness for ambition.

But now, standing at the counter chopping vegetables for his dinner, Rebecca wondered how she’d slipped so deeply into this role. Eric sat behind her, hunched over his laptop, immersed in some new video game as usual. She glanced over her shoulder. His face was slack, unthinking, his fingers tapping out moves with the precision of muscle memory.

Once, she’d tried to join him in these games, thinking they could share something, but he brushed her off. “It’s not really your thing,” he’d said, not even looking up. It’s not really my thing, she thought bitterly, pressing the knife harder against the cutting board. Her days were spent accommodating his "things," keeping their life running so he could play, work, and rest undisturbed. She couldn’t remember the last time he’d asked how she was doing. If he ever had.

Her phone buzzed on the counter, jolting her out of her thoughts. It was Sarah, her friend from college. They hadn’t spoken in months, but Sarah had always been the one to check in, to see if Rebecca was alright, even when Rebecca had nothing reassuring to say.

Want to catch up? It’s been too long.

She stared at the message, her thumb hovering. A tiny thrill prickled under her skin—an invitation to step out of her role, even just for an hour. But as quickly as it came, she brushed it away. Eric would notice if she left. He’d complain about the disruption, the inconvenience of her absence. And besides, what would she even tell Sarah?

Her response was a single word: Busy.

***

The next morning, Rebecca found herself staring at her reflection, studying the hollowness in her own eyes. She barely recognized herself—the shadows under her eyes, the faint, tired lines around her mouth. She hadn’t done anything purely for herself in years. Eric had made sure of that, subtly, by filling her life with endless responsibilities.

She remembered how charming he had been when they met, his confidence and sharp wit intoxicating. He’d known exactly what to say, how to make her feel seen, special. “You’re different from anyone I’ve met,” he’d said, and she’d believed him. But over the years, his attention had dwindled to nothing, leaving only criticism in its place. He wasn’t angry or violent; he simply…expected. Expected meals, clean clothes, a quiet house, and her undivided attention when he needed it, which was rare.

In an impulsive flash, she picked up her phone and called Sarah. Her voice trembled, unpracticed. “Actually, I’d love to catch up. Are you free today?”

***

They met in a cozy cafe, a stark contrast to the sterile silence of her own home. Sarah greeted her with a warm, relieved smile. They sat by the window, the sun warming their faces, and for the first time in years, Rebecca found herself talking—really talking. She told Sarah about Eric’s indifference, her loneliness, the numbness that had seeped into every part of her life.

Sarah listened, her eyes filled with empathy. “You don’t have to live like this, Rebecca,” she said softly. “You deserve more than this. You don’t have to just disappear.”

The words hit her like a shock. Disappear. She realized that’s exactly what she’d done. Bit by bit, she’d allowed herself to fade, believing that if she became small enough, quiet enough, he’d finally be happy with her. But he never was, and she was beginning to see that he never would be.

***

That night, Rebecca picked up a paintbrush for the first time in years. Art had once been her solace, her passion, but she’d set it aside when she met Eric, thinking she’d find something even better with him. The canvas stared back at her, blank and intimidating, but she pushed forward, letting her hand move in bold, reckless strokes. She painted until the early hours, colors swirling and blending in ways that didn’t make sense but felt right.

When Eric woke the next morning, he barely glanced at her work. “Is there coffee?” he mumbled, rubbing his eyes. He didn’t notice the exhaustion in her face, the slight tremor in her hands from a night spent pouring her heart onto the canvas. To him, the painting was just another one of her “little hobbies,” an insignificant diversion.

But for Rebecca, it was something else entirely. It was a beginning.

***

Over the next few weeks, she painted every chance she got. Her apartment filled with canvases—abstract shapes, chaotic bursts of color, expressions of frustration, longing, anger. She reconnected with old friends, too, cautiously at first, but with growing confidence. She even invited Sarah over one evening to see her work.

“Rebecca,” Sarah breathed, looking around at the paintings. “These are incredible. You could have a show with these.”

The suggestion thrilled her and terrified her at once. She could barely imagine herself stepping into that world, showing her work, stepping into the light. But the thought wouldn’t leave her. A show—a real show—felt like a bridge to another life, one where she wasn’t invisible.

When she talked about the idea with Eric that night, he laughed. “A show? Don’t you think that’s a bit much? I mean, art’s fine as a hobby, but who’s really going to care about this…stuff?”

She felt her stomach drop, but she held her ground. “It matters to me.”

He looked at her, puzzled. “Well, as long as it doesn’t interfere with things around here.”

It was a small victory, but a victory nonetheless. She wouldn’t let his dismissiveness poison her excitement. For the first time in years, she didn’t need his approval.

***

When the opportunity for a small exhibition came, she threw herself into preparing for it, spending hours refining her work. Her friends, those she’d distanced herself from during her marriage, rallied around her, filling her apartment with laughter, encouragement, and color. She realized that she’d become a stranger even to herself, but now, she was finding her way back.

Eric’s apathy persisted, though, and one night it reached a breaking point. She’d forgotten to pick up his dry cleaning—a minor oversight in the whirlwind of preparations for the exhibit—but he reacted as if she’d committed an unforgivable betrayal.

“You can’t even handle the simplest things anymore,” he snapped, his voice thick with disgust. “This is exactly why people can’t rely on you. You get distracted, obsessed with this…nonsense, and everything falls apart.”

Rebecca stood in stunned silence, her heart pounding as his words echoed in her mind. She’d heard them before, of course, in subtle digs and passing comments, but never so venomously. A strange calm settled over her as she watched him, her mind sharpening with a clarity she hadn’t felt in years.

“I think you should go,” she said quietly.

He scoffed. “Go where?”

“Out of my life,” she replied, her voice steady. “I’m done.”

***

The divorce was a brief, emotionless affair. Eric barely looked at her as they signed the papers, his face a mask of indifference. But Rebecca felt a weight lift with every page, every signature, as if she were shedding the last remnants of a life that had once consumed her.

In her new apartment, a small, sunlit space filled with canvases and art supplies, Rebecca began to rebuild. She found work at a local bookstore and spent her evenings painting, each canvas a step closer to reclaiming herself.

One evening, she was introduced to a man named Leo at a gallery opening. He was kind, soft-spoken, and seemed genuinely interested in her work. Over coffee, they talked about art, literature, and the quiet beauty of ordinary things. He asked about her story, and she told him, not as a victim but as a survivor, someone who had found her way back to herself.

As their friendship grew, Rebecca felt something she hadn’t felt in years—a tentative, cautious hope. But she was different now. She guarded her independence fiercely, setting boundaries, ensuring her life remained her own. Leo respected that, never pushing, always offering, understanding that her trust was a gift, not an expectation.

***

One night, as she looked at a painting of an open landscape she’d recently completed, Rebecca felt a sense of peace settle over her. The colors were vibrant, expansive, full of life and possibility. She realized she was no longer painting from a place of anger or loss but of freedom, of joy in the unknown.

She stood back, admiring the canvas, feeling her heart swell. Her life was her own again, full of color and light. And as she looked around her small apartment, filled with art and laughter and friends, she knew that she had finally come home—to herself.

***

Rebecca sat in front of her easel, a cup of tea cooling in her hands as she stared at the canvas. It had been weeks since she’d left Eric, and yet there were days when she felt like she was still running from him. The echoes of his voice, his criticisms, and his selfishness had clung to her like a persistent fog, lingering in the corners of her mind. But every stroke of paint, every hour spent surrounded by color, reminded her that she was moving forward.

She had learned that freedom was more than just an absence of someone else—it was the presence of her own desires, her own voice. And now, with each new day, she was learning to embrace that voice fully.

A knock on the door interrupted her thoughts. She glanced up, wiping her hands on her apron before crossing the room to answer. When she opened the door, Sarah stood on the other side, smiling brightly.

“I brought lunch,” Sarah said, holding up a small brown bag. “And I need to talk to you about something.”

Rebecca stepped aside to let her in. “What’s going on?”

Sarah set the bag down on the table and turned to face her. Her eyes were filled with excitement, and Rebecca could feel the weight of her words before they were even spoken.

“So, I’ve been talking to some of my contacts,” Sarah began, her voice full of energy. “I know this isn’t what you’ve been focused on, but there’s this gallery in the city that wants to showcase your work. They’ve seen some of the pieces you’ve been posting, and they’re really interested.”

Rebecca blinked, momentarily stunned. It wasn’t that she hadn’t dreamed of this moment—she had. But somewhere along the way, she had buried that dream beneath the weight of Eric’s indifference and her own self-doubt. Now, standing on the brink of a real opportunity, she felt her heart flutter with both fear and excitement.

“Wait,” Rebecca said, trying to process the information. “A gallery wants to showcase my work?”

Sarah nodded, her smile widening. “Yes! They want to do a full exhibition of your pieces. You’ve got talent, Rebecca. It’s time to share it with the world.”

Rebecca stood motionless for a moment, the gravity of the offer sinking in. Her first instinct was to decline, to find some reason to back away from it. She was used to pushing away any recognition, any spotlight. For so long, her identity had been tangled up in someone else’s life, their demands, their needs. Now, it felt foreign to imagine her art being seen by more than just a handful of people.

But as she looked at Sarah, standing there with such certainty and excitement, Rebecca realized that this was no longer about hiding in the shadows. This was about stepping into the light, about taking back everything she had lost in the years of playing the supporting role.

“I don’t know,” Rebecca said, her voice quieter now. “What if I’m not ready? What if they hate it?”

Sarah shook her head. “You are more than ready. You’ve been preparing for this without even realizing it. Just let yourself take the chance.”

Rebecca inhaled deeply, the weight of her past colliding with the promise of something new. She thought of the years spent cleaning up after Eric, of the hours spent in silence, trying to please him, trying to shrink herself into a version of herself that he could accept. She thought of all the times she had put off her own dreams for his comfort, for his approval. She had spent so much time waiting for his validation, but now, she was the one who needed to validate herself.

With a deep breath, she nodded. “Okay,” she said, her voice steady. “Let’s do it.”

***

The weeks leading up to the exhibition were a blur of preparations. Rebecca found herself working late into the night, touching up paintings, choosing the ones that felt the most personal, the most authentic to who she was now. Each brushstroke felt like an act of defiance, a statement of her strength and independence. No longer did she need to hide behind anyone else’s expectations. Her art was hers, and that was enough.

She took long walks through the city, visiting galleries and soaking in the works of other artists. It was both inspiring and humbling to see how much art could communicate, how much it could speak to the heart and soul. Rebecca knew she had a voice now, and it was time to let the world hear it.

On the night of the exhibition, Rebecca stood in the gallery, her heart pounding as she surveyed the room. The walls were lined with her paintings, the colors vibrant and bold against the neutral tones of the space. She could hardly believe it. This was her work, her heart on display for the world to see.

Sarah, of course, was there, beaming with pride, her enthusiasm infectious. “This is it, Rebecca,” she said, her eyes sparkling. “You’re here. You’re finally doing it.”

Rebecca smiled, but a part of her felt like she was standing on the edge of something much bigger than herself. This wasn’t just about her art; it was about reclaiming everything she had lost. It was about saying to herself—and to the world—that she was more than what Eric had tried to make her. She was more than a wife, more than a mother to a man-child. She was an artist. She was a person. She was whole.

As the evening wore on, more people filtered into the gallery, admiring the paintings, chatting with Sarah, complimenting Rebecca’s work. For the first time in years, she felt seen—not as someone’s partner or caretaker, but as an individual with something valuable to offer.

The door opened with a soft chime, and Rebecca looked up, startled to see Leo standing in the doorway. He was smiling, his eyes warm, and he waved at her across the room. She hadn’t expected him to come; she had told herself she wasn’t doing this for him, that she was doing it for herself. But when he walked toward her, his presence was like a quiet reassurance that she wasn’t alone in this journey.

“You’re incredible,” Leo said softly, his gaze taking in the paintings with genuine admiration. “I knew you had talent, but this… this is something else.”

Rebecca smiled, feeling a warmth spread through her. “Thank you. It’s…it’s been a long time coming.”

Leo tilted his head. “I know. But you’re here now. And that’s what matters.”

They stood together, both of them taking in the room, the paintings, the crowd. For a moment, it felt like the world was a little bit kinder, a little bit brighter, because she had dared to take a step into it, on her own terms.

As the evening drew to a close, and the last of the guests filtered out, Sarah came over with a bottle of champagne, her grin wide. “You did it, Rebecca. You really did it.”

Rebecca took the glass, her fingers steady. “We did it,” she corrected. “We all did.”

Leo raised his glass in agreement, and Rebecca, for the first time in years, felt the weight of her past lift. She had finally found her way back to herself, not through someone else’s approval, but through her own strength, her own desire to live fully, authentically.

She was no longer a shadow. She was the artist, the woman who had stepped out of the darkness and into the light. And this was just the beginning.

Thursday, December 12, 2024

The Price of Their Disconnect by Olivia Salter

  



The Price of Their Disconnect


By Olivia Salter


Word Count: 2,881


The sky had turned heavy and thick with gray clouds, as if mourning something invisible, as Karla sat alone in the corner of her favorite coffee shop. She didn’t bother with the menu; she already knew she’d order a black coffee, not because she particularly liked it but because it gave her a reason to stay awake, to feel something sharper than the ache that had settled in her chest. She hadn’t slept much since the last fight with Michael, but she doubted a few more hours would help.

A crack of thunder echoed above the city, and the first drops of rain hit the window beside her, streaking down like the tears she’d held back for weeks. She was here to think—really think—about what her life had become with him and why, despite everything, she felt so trapped in his orbit.

When Karla had first met Michael, he was all confidence, a magnetic force in any room. It was the way he could make her feel as if she was the only one who mattered, his eyes searching hers like they held some mystery he was trying to solve. He listened intently, or so she thought back then. She still remembered their first date, how he asked her questions she’d never been asked, questions that made her feel interesting, even special.

But it was only later, once the charm began to fade, that she noticed how his interest seemed conditional. At first, it was just the small things—like the way his eyes drifted away when she spoke about her job, the way he always seemed to turn the conversation back to himself. She’d tell herself that maybe she was being too sensitive, expecting too much, and that she should let it go. But soon, the small things grew bigger, taking up space in her mind, tugging at her heart until she couldn’t ignore it.

Her coffee arrived, and she wrapped her hands around the mug, letting its warmth seep into her cold fingers. She let herself get lost in the memory of one night a few weeks ago. She’d come home exhausted after a grueling day at work, eager just to be with him, to vent and find comfort in his presence. But the moment she’d started talking, he’d cut her off with a dismissive laugh. “You’re always so dramatic, Karla. Can’t you just relax?”

The words hit her then like a slap, and her mouth had gone dry. For a moment, she couldn’t speak, couldn’t do anything but stare at him, trying to understand why her simple need for support seemed so ridiculous to him. She didn’t realize until then that she’d been holding her breath, waiting for his approval in small, painful ways every single day.

Her phone buzzed on the table, jerking her out of her thoughts. It was a text from him.

"When are you coming over?"

The words glowed on the screen, impatient, like everything was a matter of his time, his mood. She felt the anger simmering beneath her skin, a slow burn of realization. She wasn’t sure when it happened—when she’d started bending herself to fit his rhythms, to soothe his moods, to tiptoe around his temper. She remembered the countless nights lying awake beside him, listening to his breathing, replaying arguments in her mind, trying to make sense of his words.

It felt absurd to imagine that she’d once thought she loved him, that she’d fallen for his smile and the way he’d held her hand. But now she understood: there was a difference between being held and being kept.

A small voice inside her—a part of herself she hadn’t heard in a long time—whispered that she didn’t deserve this, that she was allowed to want more than his shifting moods and careless words. But that voice was quiet, muffled by years of telling herself that if she just loved harder, bent further, everything would be okay.

Another crack of thunder rattled the windows, and Karla flinched, spilling a bit of her coffee onto the saucer. As she stared at the dark, spreading stain, she felt something shift, a spark she couldn’t ignore.

Her thoughts drifted to her friend Maya, a presence as steady as an oak tree. Maya had once told her, “People who don’t know how to handle their own emotions will make you carry the weight of theirs.” Karla had brushed it off back then, sure that she and Michael were different, that he’d understand her eventually. But Maya had known, somehow. Maybe she’d seen the signs long before Karla had dared to.

That night, she found herself outside Michael’s apartment, the rain soaking through her jacket as she gathered her thoughts. Her hands trembled as she opened the door and stepped inside, her spirit clashing with the familiar pull of his presence.

Michael glanced up from the couch, barely sparing her a smile. “Took you long enough,” he muttered, eyes glued to his phone.

The words prickled under her skin, but she forced herself to ignore them, sitting down across from him, studying his face as if she could find answers there. When she finally spoke, her voice was steady. “Michael, we need to talk.”

He rolled his eyes, setting his phone aside. “Oh, here we go. You’re always so dramatic.”

That word again—dramatic. It hung in the air, heavy and bitter, and for the first time, she didn’t feel the need to defend herself. She let it linger, let him see the impact of his words, but he only shrugged, his face a mask of irritation.

“Michael,” she began carefully, each word precise, as if she were stepping through a minefield. “I’ve tried to explain how I feel, but you always dismiss me. You always make it about yourself.”

He scoffed, shaking his head. “Oh, so it’s all my fault now?”

And there it was—the blame, the deflection, the refusal to take responsibility. She could feel the years of self-doubt and second-guessing peeling away, leaving her raw but unburdened. She’d spent so much time wondering what she’d done wrong, but now, she saw that the problem wasn’t her at all.

With a clarity she hadn’t felt in months, she met his gaze. “I don’t deserve this. I don’t deserve to be made small just because you can’t handle your own feelings. I’ve bent myself to fit into your life, to keep you happy, but I can’t do it anymore.”

Michael opened his mouth to argue, but she held up her hand, stopping him. “You don’t listen. You never really have. And I’m done being invisible to someone who can only see himself.”

For a moment, his face flickered with something—surprise, maybe even hurt. But it was gone as quickly as it appeared, replaced by a look of hardened indifference. He shrugged, as if she’d just told him she was switching brands of toothpaste. “Fine. If that’s how you feel, then go.”

The coldness of his words stung, but she’d expected it. She nodded, a bittersweet smile curving her lips as she took a step back, feeling the weight lift, piece by piece.

Walking out of his apartment, the rain greeted her, a cleansing storm that soaked through her clothes but filled her with a strange sense of freedom. Each step felt lighter than the last, the air crisp and electric. She could feel the city breathing around her, alive and thrumming with possibilities, and for the first time in a long time, she felt a part of it.

As she made her way down the rain-slicked streets, her phone buzzed again. She glanced at it, expecting another message from Michael. But it was Maya.

"Hey, just thinking about you. Hope you’re okay."

Karla’s chest tightened, gratitude flooding her veins. She thought of Maya’s steady presence, of her unwavering support, and knew that this was what she deserved—a connection built on empathy, a friendship that didn’t demand her silence or her sacrifice.

As she slipped her phone back into her pocket, Karla felt the weight of the past few months begin to dissolve. She didn’t know what the future held, but she knew she’d be walking into it on her own terms, her own heart in her hands.

The rain softened, a mist rising from the pavement as she walked away from the shadows that had once held her captive, toward a light she’d almost forgotten was there. And as she stepped into the city’s glow, she whispered a silent promise to herself: never again.

***

Karla walked the streets for hours, feeling a mix of numbness and relief settle over her as the rain finally stopped. She wandered without a destination, watching as the city returned to life around her. The sounds of car horns and laughter filtered through the air, voices calling out from nearby bars and restaurants, and for the first time in months, she felt like she was part of the world again. Not an afterthought, not someone who had to fit herself into someone else's expectations. Just her—Karla.

As the evening turned into night, she found herself drawn to a small bookstore tucked into a narrow alleyway, a place she’d passed by dozens of times but never really noticed. Its window was dimly lit, and the shelves were cluttered with books stacked every which way, like secrets waiting to be uncovered. She stepped inside, the bell above the door giving a soft chime, and felt immediately at home. The scent of aged paper and leather-bound covers surrounded her like a warm hug.

A woman at the counter looked up from her book and gave her a friendly smile. “Let me know if you need any help,” she said.

“Thanks, I’m just looking,” Karla replied, her voice softer, calmer than she’d felt in a long time.

She browsed aimlessly, letting her fingers drift over spines, occasionally picking up a book, reading a sentence or two before placing it back. But when she reached the poetry section, her fingers froze on a slim volume titled To Heal and To Grow. She opened it to a random page, and her eyes fell on a passage that read:

"Sometimes we mistake survival for love, thinking that what keeps us holding on is our heart, when really it’s just fear. True love doesn’t demand your silence or your suffering—it welcomes your whole self, flaws and all."

Her breath caught. She hadn’t realized how deeply she’d needed those words. She held the book close to her chest, as if it were a lifeline, something solid she could hold onto in the wake of all she’d let go.

“You like that one?” the woman at the counter asked, her eyes kind and curious.

Karla nodded, swallowing back the sudden lump in her throat. “Yeah. It… it feels like something I needed to hear.”

The woman nodded knowingly. “Funny how books can find us when we need them most.”

Karla paid for the book and left, feeling a strange comfort settle into her bones. She’d spent so long searching for acceptance and connection with someone who could never truly understand her. But now, in this small, serendipitous moment, she’d found a piece of herself she’d almost forgotten—someone who was strong enough to walk away, who deserved more than the shadows cast by others.

The next day, she woke early and called Maya. The two met at a small cafe that was drenched in morning light, every table surrounded by ferns and potted plants that seemed to breathe with the same quiet life as Karla’s spirit.

Maya arrived a few minutes later, her face lighting up when she saw Karla. “There you are!” She wrapped Karla in a tight hug. “You look different, girl. Lighter. What’s going on?”

Karla laughed, feeling a warmth she hadn’t in ages. “I broke it off with Michael,” she said, the words almost surreal but completely freeing.

Maya’s smile turned serious, and she squeezed Karla’s hand. “I’m proud of you. I know that wasn’t easy.”

Karla nodded, letting her gaze drop to the coffee cup between her hands. “It wasn’t, but… it was time. I realized I was losing myself, and I didn’t even recognize the person I’d become. I was so caught up in trying to make it work, trying to change so he’d finally see me. But he never did, and he never would.”

Maya nodded, her eyes full of understanding. “You know, we don’t always notice the red flags at first. They’re easy to overlook when we’re hoping for something real. But I’m glad you saw it, even if it took a while. Some people never do.”

They talked for hours, sharing stories, laughing, and finally letting go of the weight that had hung over Karla for so long. For the first time, Karla didn’t feel the need to hide her pain or pretend to be okay. She let it spill out, raw and unfiltered, and as she did, she felt her heart open in a way it hadn’t in years. She felt free.

After they finished their coffee, Maya invited her over to her place, where a few other friends were gathering for a casual dinner. It was an intimate setting, just close friends catching up and unwinding, but to Karla, it felt like a reunion with herself. These were people who saw her, who’d loved her long before Michael and would love her long after. They didn’t need her to shrink herself to fit their comfort, and as she laughed and talked with them, she realized this was what real connection felt like—light, warm, and effortless.

That night, Karla lay in bed, her new poetry book open on the pillow beside her. She read a line that struck her deeply:

"Let go of the shadows others cast over you. Find your own light, and let it grow wild."

As she closed her eyes, she let those words settle in her heart, filling the empty spaces left by doubt and heartache. She had spent so long dimming her light for someone who could never see it. Now, she was ready to let it shine—unapologetically, fiercely, just as she was.

Days turned into weeks, and Karla began to rebuild her life. She threw herself into her passions, finding solace in painting vibrant landscapes that reflected her emotions and the beauty she was rediscovering. Each brushstroke was a release, a way to express the feelings she had long kept bottled up. She explored new interests, diving into photography, capturing fleeting moments and the intricate details of everyday life that had once gone unnoticed. 

Karla also rekindled her love for cooking, experimenting with flavors and recipes, turning her kitchen into a sanctuary of creativity and warmth. She reconnected with friends, organizing weekly game nights and coffee catch-ups that filled her heart with laughter and camaraderie. Long walks through the city became a cherished ritual, allowing her to appreciate the blooming flowers in park gardens, the architecture of buildings she had passed a hundred times, and the rhythm of life around her.

With every step, she felt a deeper connection to her surroundings. She discovered a passion for writing, journaling her thoughts and experiences, weaving her journey into stories that inspired her and others. Karla realized she was rediscovering herself, piece by piece, and she loved every moment of it. Each new passion added a layer to her identity, and she embraced the vibrant tapestry of her life, celebrating the beauty of transformation and renewal.

One afternoon, as she sat at her favorite park bench, a man approached her, his dog pulling him excitedly toward her. He offered a shy smile, one that held warmth without expectation. They struck up a conversation about the dog, then about the weather, and finally about the poetry book in her lap.

“Do you mind if I ask what you’re reading?” he asked.

She showed him the cover of To Heal and To Grow, and he raised his eyebrows in appreciation. “That’s a good one. A little heavy, but it gets to the heart of things.”

Karla nodded, feeling a genuine smile spread across her face. “Yeah, it does. I think that’s why I love it.”

As they talked, Karla felt none of the weight, none of the pressure she’d once felt with Michael. This man listened without interrupting, his eyes meeting hers without a trace of impatience. There was no rush, no need to prove anything—just two people sharing a moment in the warm afternoon sun.

As they parted ways, he offered her a simple, respectful goodbye, and she realized with a gentle certainty that she was no longer looking to fill a void or chase a feeling of belonging. She was whole, just as she was. And if someone was meant to join her on her journey, they’d find her walking in her own light, on her own terms.

That night, as she lay in bed, Karla felt a peacefulness she hadn’t known in years. She was no longer afraid of being alone, no longer afraid of the shadows others cast. She’d found her way back to herself, and now, the world felt brighter, wider, and more beautiful than it ever had before.

Wednesday, December 11, 2024

  



Where You Left Me


By Olivia Salter


Word Count: 1,166


The hallway leading to Alex’s apartment was as dim as he remembered, its lights flickering as if caught between light and dark, like him. Ben’s hand hovered over her door, fingers brushing against the cold wood. How many times had he been here before, running through some last-minute excuse he could throw out just to ease his way back into her life?

Her door, worn and marked by the scars of past visitors—scratches from keys, dents from careless knocks—stared back at him. He wanted to knock, to give in to the usual ritual of waiting until she forgave him with that look of quiet surrender. It was always that way with her. She’d see the shadows in him and brush them off as though they were nothing, as if he were worth the love she gave so freely.

This time was different, though. It had been months. Three long, hollow months of nothing but the silence she’d left behind, a silence that had begun to gnaw at him like hunger. Finally, he forced himself to knock, listening as the sound faded into the emptiness on the other side. He waited, seconds stretching like hours.

But no one came to the door.

***

He fumbled for his spare key, feeling the weight of it—small, cold, yet somehow heavier than anything he’d ever held. He turned it in the lock, the familiar click sounding strangely foreign, almost like a warning.

The door opened onto a darkened space, shades drawn and light creeping only around the edges. He stepped inside, taking in the emptiness, the stark vacancy that pressed in from every corner. The smell of her lavender candles had faded, replaced by the dry, stale scent of abandonment. There were no cushions on the couch, no forgotten cup of tea on the counter, no mess of books sprawled out by her favorite chair. All of it was gone, like a stage set dismantled after the final act.

He moved through the rooms, trying to find some sign, some piece of her she might have left behind. In the kitchen, he reached out instinctively for her mug—the one with the chipped edge she always insisted on using—only to find an empty shelf, smooth and bare, as if she’d never even been here.

Each room was stripped, devoid of her warmth. Even the bathroom mirror, once fogged with her morning routines and little messages traced in lipstick, was clean, sterile. He opened a drawer, empty. A cabinet, empty. He felt the quiet seep into him, heavy and unforgiving.

But the bedroom was what truly unnerved him. Her bed was gone, leaving an impression in the carpet like a shadow that refused to fade. For a moment, he stood there, heart pounding, staring at that empty space. She’d been meticulous in her absence, erasing herself from every corner of the apartment, as if to ensure that he wouldn’t find a trace of her.

A memory broke through—her last text, months ago, after he’d brushed her off one too many times: If you push me away, I promise you, you won’t find me where you left me.

He’d laughed at the time, dismissing it as another one of her melodramatic responses. But now, standing in the hollow shell of her life, he felt her absence as a deep, aching weight.

***

Weeks passed, yet her ghost lingered in his thoughts, haunting him. Everywhere he looked, he saw her—a glimpse of her favorite color in a scarf, the sound of her laughter, faint but distinct, drifting from a nearby café. He began seeking her out, roaming the streets, asking friends about her, but no one had answers. It was as though she had vanished, dissolved from his world entirely.

Then, on a rainy afternoon, he finally saw her. She stood by a street-side café, wrapped in a red scarf he’d never seen, her face lit with laughter. She was radiant, almost unrecognizable in her ease. There was a man beside her, tall and dark-eyed, his hand resting on the small of her back as they shared a quiet moment, leaning close as if they were the only two people in the world.

Ben froze, his chest tightening as he took in the sight. This was Alex, but not the Alex he’d known. This woman looked like she belonged here, belonged to this life, to this man who held her gaze with a warmth Ben had never managed to give her. The weight of what he’d lost settled in his stomach, sharp and bitter.

The man whispered something, and Alex laughed, the sound spilling into the air like a song. She leaned her head against the man’s shoulder, eyes closing, a look of peace washing over her face. A peace that had never been there when she was with him.

For a moment, he wanted to run to her, to plead, to remind her of all they’d shared. But he knew it would be useless. She was no longer his to claim, no longer the woman waiting by the door, her heart open, hoping he’d choose her completely. She’d become someone he could barely recognize—strong, whole, and untethered from him.

***

Ben wandered the streets for hours, the rain soaking him through, blending with the tears he hadn’t realized he’d shed. He returned to his apartment that night, sitting alone in the dim light, staring at the empty spaces where traces of her had once lingered—a book she’d left, a blanket she’d wrapped herself in on cold nights, a forgotten photograph of them he’d tucked in a drawer.

He realized that all those things she’d left behind had been her way of asking him to stay, to fill the silence with something real. But he’d been too blind, too selfish, to see it. And now, all that remained was a hollow ache, a void he couldn’t fill.

He tried to reach out to her once, a brief message he’d typed and retyped a hundred times before finally sending it: I’m sorry. I miss you.

Days passed without a reply, the silence his only answer. He’d pushed her away, expecting her to stay, believing that love could wait on his terms. But he understood now—some things, once lost, could never be found again.

***

Weeks turned to months, and Ben settled into a new rhythm, one he’d never asked for but couldn’t escape. The emptiness followed him, a quiet reminder of all he’d taken for granted. Every so often, he’d see a flicker of red in a crowded street or hear a laugh that sounded just like hers, and for a moment, he’d forget, caught between memory and reality.

But each time he remembered her words, her parting message to him: If you push me away, I promise you, you won’t find me where you left me.

And he knew now that the last place he would ever find her… was where he’d left her.

The Marriage That Wasn't by Olivia Salter

   The Marriage That Wasn't By Olivia Salter Word Count: 1,208 It was 2:07 AM when Tamara lay on her back, staring at the ceiling, her b...